Inside of my smile is my hurt, and it's all because, you!

Pagi-pagi buka postingan di grup kelas jamanan SMA. Oke ini luka lama, dan males banget kalo harus ngungkit ini lagi. Gue belum pernah cerita ya sebelumnya? gue bakal kilas balik sedikit aja ya tapi. Dulu gue sempet deket sama salah satu temen cowok gue, sebut aja Milo. Gue ngerasa ada banyak kesamaan di antara kami, ya untuk beberapa waktu aku ngerasa ada sesuatu yang bikin aku jadi care sama Milo. Ada aja alesan buat nyariin Milo. Dan belakangan aku ngerasa nggak bisa jauh dari dia, atau paling enggak dia selalu ngajakin bercanda and always make me laugh. Sampai tiba saatnya nggak tau momment apa tiba-tiba aku juga deket sama salah seorang temen cewek, sebut aja Nanda. Aku nggak tau sebenernya dia tau atau enggak kalau aku punya perasaan lebih ke Milo, tapi sebagai cewek seharusya dari gelagat gue aja dia tau kalo gue sayang sama Milo, kan pasti keliatan dari cara ngomong gue ke Milo kaya gimana, pandangan mata atau ekspresi dan caring gue buat Milo. Ya, gue rasa dia peka, cuma belagak bego dan nggak tau mungkin.

Dan kalian tau apa yang Nanda lakuin? Dia banyak banget cerita tentang Milo ke gue. Gue akuin semenjak gue deket sama Nanda ini, Milo emang jadi jarang banget kontak sama gue. Nanda cerita tentang smsan-nya sama Milo, apa aja yang mereka bicarakan selalu diceritain ke gue. Bayangin! Dia tau perasaan gue sama Milo kaya gimana tapi dia ceritain itu semua sama gue. Entah sengaja atau pura-pura nggak tau dua itu. Ya udah, gue istilahnya rela buat nggak ngedeketin Milo lagi. Sok buat lo aja, Nda. Toh dulunya gue juge belum pernah dapet kejelasan status maupun perasaan dari Milo. Dan itu juga sepenuhnya hak Milo buat deket sama siapa aja. Yang gue sesalkan cuma sikap lo, Nda. Lo sama sekali nggak pernah tau perasaan gue, seenggaknya lo nanya kek apa dulu gue pernah punya perasaan sama Milo? Anak kecil tau nggak sih lo! Semua senyum yang gue kasih ke lo tiap lo curhat tentang Milo, semua tanggepan yang gue beri, atau bercandaan yang selalu bikin lo malu-malu. Palsu, Nda. Dan lo nggak pernah tau itu. Lo nggak pernah tau gue sering banget nangis karena ngeliat kedekatan kalian, bahkan mungkin kalau terkadang secara tersirat ekspresi wajahku sedih lo keliatan puas banget udah berhasil ngerebut perhatian Milo dari gue.

Gue terima, toh temen-temen cowok Milo tau banget gimana perasaan Nanda sama Milo dan bahkan cenderung ngedukung. Sedangkan gue bisa apa?
Nanda, boleh jadi emang temen-temen Milo selalu ngedukung lo dan tau banget perasaan lo ke dia. Tapi temen-temen gue jauh lebih tau gimana sakitnya gue harus ngerelain orang yang gue sayang buat anak kecil macem lo. Kalo lo mau Milo, sok diambil, gue udah nggak minat lahi, toh dia juga sekarang milih cewek lain dan bukan lo orangnya.

Dan satu hal lagi, gue nggak akan ngebiarin lo ngelakuin hal yang sama ke gue untuk yang kedua kalinya, meskipun gue tau lo lebih deket sama cowok yang juga sering kontak-kontakkan sama gue. Lo tau gue respect sama cowok itu, tapi kalo lo berani nyerobot lagi kaya supir angkot, gue bakal pastiin kehidupan cinta lo nggak akan pernah tenang. Lo catet itu baik-baik.

Fight for UAS !!!

Kali ini gue nggak bakal pake English, karena banyak banget kata-kata yang bakal susah gue ungkapin kalo kalo pake English. Beeeuuuhh... there were so many foolish things that. Ini cerita tentang gue dan temen-temen waktu ngadepin prepare buat UAS seminggu ini. Postingan ini hanya hiburan semata, yang baik silakan diconto, yang menyesatkan jangan dimasukkan dalam kantong hati yaaa,,haha.

Suatu hari menjelang ujian mata kuliah Dasar-dasar Afasia, kami kelabakan belajardi satu pojokan kampus yang teramat elite. Gue sama temen-temen ribut karena bekal kami ternyata kiranya belum cukup untuk membantai soal-soal yang akan diberikan nanti.

Karena masih menganut sistem SKS (Sistem Kebut Semalam) pun akhirnya semua handout dan gambar ilustrasi kami keluarkan, berharap semua itu bisa nyangkut di otak dan menyelamatkan kami dari kehancuran IP. Bhahahaha.

Hahaha lol. Look at this picture! Just read, I tell you the truth, ngahahahaa. Nyahahahaaay.

Some expressive momments of my friends :D

All the handout frustated us. Ffffuufffuuuuufftttt.....

 

Ngumpul di kos Maya belajar bareng. Liat yg di atas ranjang, mereka mengaku SAUDARA KEMBAR!! Nguahahaa...

whoooooo.....ssoo seerrrriiiooousssssss. Don't disturb!

Kos Maya tiba-tiba jadi sekolah darurat. Semacam penampungan korban banjir gitu deh. hyahahaaa. Ulin yang jadi dosennya. Do you believe, guys????

Kalo nggak percaya, ini buktinya. Meski kami meragukan kapabilitasnya, setidaknya kami menyatukan banyak kepala untuk memecahkan berbagai macam perbedaan pemahaman dan Ulin jadi icon-nya di depan. Huahahaaaa. Apaan??? orang dia diberondong bejibun pertanyaan dari mahasiswa-mahasiswanya aja kelabakan sendiri, jiahaaahaha, tantrumnya kumat. Muahaaha. Piss Ulinn :*

Alam Alim (Alam Ipa Lima)

Hey, I'll tell you about all of my senior high school's friends. This picture was taken when we would graduate from our school. In the end of our togetherness, we felt like didn't wanna to separate each other. I'll tell you from the left to right. Okay, start from the uppest line of this picture, the boys in my class. They are Mukmin, the romantic gitarist in our class. Upit, the cool gitarist and pianist we've ever had. Then Ucup, the smartest boy in my class, he always in the first position in rank of my class. Wahyono, he is a smart boy too, a little handsome I think *hahahaha* yeah I say like that because no other boys in my class that the pshysical appearance is so cooler than him, but he is so seldom to talk with each other. Hassan, smart boy, he use eyeglasses when the lesson, he is a black-sweet boy, haha. Zaid, he is a *krik-krik* boy, because his jokes is so garing and make anyone confuse to give what respons to his jokes, but actually he is a kind and helpful boy. Dicky, not too different with Hassan, he is a black-sweet boy, haha, he is the ex boyfriend of Fian, one of my classmate. Rio, he is the leader of our class, he is small but so useful. Imam, actually he seems like much of silent so I don't know how he is, but same with much of boy of my class he is so smart. Suha, he is a funny boy, when we near him, he always has some words that can make us laugh. Then Rezha, actually I am so interest to tell about him, you know? for 2 years the togetherness of IPA 5, me and Rezha are being matchmade by our friends as a couple,iyuuuhh, huhu I really dislike to be like that, feel like shy or embarassing you know. Bayu, he is a really funny, hyperactive, and friendly boy, and he is the trouble maker who often makes me shy in front of Rezha. The last is Pri, he is so high, he always come to school lately, then his hobby is sleep in the class whe the our teacher was explaining the materials. The middle line from the left to the right start to talk about the girl. Momon, she is a "lola"-funny- girl. Aulia, K-POP lovers. Arum, she is the master of traditional dance in our class. Asty, some friends call her "sapi". Luluk, she always "hebring" and sometimes speaks loudly, make our attention come to her. Likda, beautiful dancer she is. Fian, a very creative girl, drawing, painting, art are the icons of her. Peje, a tomboy, friendly, kind, and cheerful girl. Tatat, the photogenic girl, she is so cute, guys. Asih, she a very very very kind person, I like her so much, she was like my own sister. Linda, the bass-voice of girl in the choir group, she is so cheerful. Elyza, so identic with badminton. Mbak Wid, wuuuu.. she is a smart girl. Mbul, mascot of pulse. Elindut, my twins, because we born in the same day dan date. Nylla, she a a perfect body as a girl, so beautiful. Then the most forward line from the left to the right too. Mbok day, she is a highest girl in our class. Mbak Isnani, she is an example of truly mosleemah. Isnani, I dont know much more about her, hehe sorry. Erin, I love her style of wearing hijabs. And its me *okay, its better if we skip this part*. Waty, the soulmate of Nylla, so modist girl. Dyan, she is a sweet gilr. The center of our line is our lovely Mom and teacher, she is Bu Tari, she is a very patient teacher, she always talk to me like talk to her own child.Then Mbak Siti, she is so smart girl. Yeyen, a funny and chinesse face girl. Vanny/pamplet, proud to be Gunners, haha. Hanifah, the second leader or my class. Mbak Eka, smart girl too, identic wih Pshyc lessons. Dyah, a sleepy girl, hehe. Aliph, she is my wise sister. And the last Mbok El, she is a beautiful-smart girl, chemical-biology addict.

Me and Tatat (my tablemate)

Yeyen, Mbul, Me, and Aliph (sista foreva)

They always call us like amoeba when we stand besides each other. From behind we are so simmiliar, they sometimes call me Aliph and call Aliph as me, haha lol

Really?

Friday, after I got Neurology class, I had to attend meeting of my college organization. While we were waiting for arrival of other friends, I continued to read my new novel. Then the leader of this organization ask me like that "Do you like to read novel?"
I just answered "Yes I do"
Then a conversations happened between us.
"Really? Usually you buy or just borrow them?" he focused his eyes to me. And I loved to see his eyes brow. It was the icon of him. Hahah, how cool he was with his eyes brow.
"Yeah, sometimes I borrow but sometimes I also bought that. It just about how much money in my wallet to buy some books" I'm being glad having times to talk with him.
"Haha, I know the student of the college's budget. Just not too far the same condition like me. Do you know? I love read novel too"
I was speechless to hear that "Oh yeah?? Your face doesn't show that you loved to read novels too, you know?? hahaha"
He took laugh for a few times. Hahaha, I'm sorry, its just joke.
"Hahaha, aseem"
"Yeah, I love to read novel since I read the Tetralogy of Rainbow Troops. Emm..actually I love the novel that the story seems like that, it was so inspiring, right?"
Yeah I think so"
"Have you ever read Negeri 5 Menara? I was interesting with the novel too"
"Yes, I have, but the second novel Ranah 3 Warna is more wonderful than the first story before"
 Then we took a long time to talk more about novel. I never though before that this person has interest with novels. But he said that he just like to read inspiring novel not a romantic novel like almost I have or read. Hahaha. I love to talk or share about novel :)

Great Karaoke Day!!!

From now, I'll use English much more to write everything I wanna share on this blog. Except when I write about my short story. Yeha, I just wanna improve my English with hoping that it will be some better impact for me.

Okay, I start to tell about today, me and my friends (fita,kura,emak,endy,ochi,maya,laras,ulin and ciput) -yeah,I always being happy and lucky to be aroung them everyday, they were coloring my day in college- , thursday we didn't have any class. So, my friends and me choosed to go having fun to the Happy Puppy Karaoke Family at Solo Square. Actually, almost of us didn't have much money to just spend them. Because last week there were much of things that we had to pay. But one of us named Dyan, we usually call her Kura, she was willing to pay all the cost for Karaoke. Ngahaha... thanks a lot for Kura today, biggy biggy hugs and kisses for Kura.

We started from the Ochi's boarding house. After arrived at SS, while we was waiting for arriving of emak, we choosed to walk around the mall. We separated in two group. Kura, fita, ciput and maya stop in the shoes and bag shop. And me, laras, ulin, ochi and endy choosed to continue our journey to walk around. Finally, we gotta stop in a shop that I forgot the name. We as  girls was having mood to see and try some shoes that displayed in one of shoes center there. There were so many beautiful shoes, whuuuu.. I wanna catch and buy that, but my budget was not good. Huhuuu.. I don't wanna miss it, so laras, ulin,ochi,endy and me try some cute shoes that catch our attention. You know guys? Laras that usually feels so alergic with high-heels or wedges, she tried some of them. Ngahaha.. she put one blue wedges on her foots. It's looked so cute, right? Then I said to Laras "Ras, after you gonna put that on your foot, its better that you join with 7icons to replace one personil of the girl band muahahaha...". Ochi also tried some shoes that the models like semy-gladiators, she said that she loved to show the back of her foots. And me, I felt interest with some shoes that having heels so high, haha it was look so beautiful in my foot. In this situation I wanna beg my Mom to buy that for me. But I could make sure that my Mom won't to do that, hiks how pity I am. If I truly beg to my Mom, she will just ask me to write down which one I wanna buy without realization of her. Huaaaa...I just can take some pictures when I tried the shoes. I truly wanna grab that!!!

AWWW!!!! I wanna put one into my bag!hahahaa :D

Okay, because we didn't buy any shoes there, we decided to out from this shop. I was sad cause can't bring one of them, you know? they were like sreaming to me like that "ooohh atuuk, I was  too cute to ignore, take me out and put me to beautify your foots" ahihi.

Then we met Emak was arriving from the entrance while we was waiting kura, fita and maya come gather to us. We continue to the true destination that day. It was karaoke day, guys. You know guys? we made some playlist, that was so many songs that show how much we love dangdut song. You can say that we are kamseupay, but it was so entertaining, guys! yuuhhuuuuuu!!! We sang some dangdut like Sik-Asik by Ayu Ting-Ting, and also Iwak Peyek by Trio Macan. Ngahahaha....we practiced dangdut dance so. We couldn't stop to laugh.

We didn't miss to sing the Cherry Belle songs, like Dilema, I'll be there for you, Best friend forever. Hahaha, we were so similiar with the girlband, but we were cuter than them. Hahhaha. Unforgattable momments when we saw the video that taken by Ochi's phone. I just awake that today I was so attractive than before. I was still moving myself when the other guys start having tired or loosing their voice. Ahahaha. For the last song we choosed Arti Sahabat by Nidji. It was like showed us how worth the bestfriends are for. :)

To end the journey of that day, we choosed to eat in KFC. you know? We came to the KFC like an 'arisan group'. Catching people attention around us with our stromy. Ngahaha, again and again we was Central People Attention or we called PPO (Pusat Perhatian Orang). We got some CDs for the bonus of what we ordered. One them is Ungu's new album, Yeey! Me and ulin fight to grab that, but I took earlier before her. Ngahaha It will be mine! :*

That was a great day wih TenGenerations of Speech Therapy. I love em so much :*